Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Aftermath of Irene

It's been awhile since I have updated....The week before this one was extremely busy. Aside from being at school and preparing for the upcoming school year, we were also preparing for Irene, the hurricane that was creeping up the coast towards us. Lowe's, grocery stores, drugstores....empty of essentials...bread, milk, ice, anything that could be eaten without refrigeration..as well as flashlights, batteries, etc.

It was crazy to see this happening and honestly, I didn't really understand why everyone was getting so hyped up.

Well, then the storm hit.

I was actually gone for the weekend - my husband was home alone to face the storm with our dog and two cats. I was at a bachelorette party in the mountains, where we experienced rain and some wind but not much else. He, on the other hand, experienced hours of strong winds, heavy rainfall and watching trees and power lines fall as if they were twigs and string. We lost power at some point during Saturday evening...and we have yet to get it back.

I felt horrible for being gone but would have regretted not going. Being Catholic though, it's hard to avoid the guilt of being gone during such a frightening time. When I arrived home on Sunday, I had already stopped at Wal-Mart to re-stock on things that we may need in the coming days. Josh (husband) was already raking the yard of the leaves that had fallen and covered our yard...he had about 12-14 large piles, along with some very large branches. Luckily, the only casualties to the storm were one piece of siding and our power. Everything else was shaken up and the trees are surprisingly bare for just the end of summer, but fine.

While our neighborhood was okay, the roads throughout our county were littered with downed trees, power lines trapped below them, and houses that had fared much more damage than us. For the last few days, we have not done much - schools are either flooded or closed due to electricity issues - we have stayed a night at family's house and go over to shower and cool down in her air conditioning. We've gone to Panera or libraries periodically to charge up the computers or cell phones but there just isn't a lot to do....that we can do.

So this is how I ended up in the neighborhood library. I got one of the last tables on the second floor and am watching the Red Cross pass out free lunches to the people in this community. Everything is charging up and I am cooling down as time passes. I can only hope that our power returns soon...I am in need of some down time with air conditioning in my own home....a shower without driving somewhere...and a refrigerator that doesn't smell like spoiled food.

Sigh....

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

New school, new atmosphere...same old school supplies

I am EXHAUSTED

It is amazing how much being back at a job you haven't worked really hard at in three months can wear you out. That is why this entry will be short and sweet.

I am THRILLED with my new school and my new school district. Everyone is so positive and helpful. Technology is highly emphasized and there are a TON of resources that we have at our disposal to access it with our students. I have been totally floored in the last few days by the amazing organization and expectations that the people in this district possess. It is just unspeakable how awesome it is.

But I am tired. All three days this week, outside of training, have been spent moving boxes from my house to my classroom, cleaning up the junk from the previous teacher, and unpacking everything....and finding a spot. I find myself doing the same thing that I did when I worked at the Columbus Zoo and Aquarium....just walking around in circles, picking up stuff, placing it somewhere and doing it over and over again.

I am working with what appears to be a fantastic staff so far - I've made a few wonderful friends so far and am so glad that I worked my butt off to get this position. I feel very privileged to be working in my current district and no matter how horrible the kids are, I have a feeling that I am going to be the most happy that I have been in years with my job. I know that all this optimism might change as the year progresses, but I am going in with light shoulders and an open mind!

I will post again soon....but not anymore tonight :) I am falling asleep!

Sunday, August 21, 2011

The Importance of Personal Time

As the hours begin to wane down before returning to a school building, I was reminded today of how important personal time is to a person, especially me.

I am the oldest child in my family ( I almost said was but no, it's still true) and being that, for some reason, I ended up spending a good deal of time by myself as a child. I guess I was a bit of a bully to my next younger sister and when my youngest sister was born, they formed a bond that between the two of them. I don't think it was intentional; it's just when I was getting older and dealing with growing up first and 'breaking down those barriers' (ex. sleepovers, curfews, dating boys, etc), they shared a room and A LOT of time together.

I actually didn't mind it that much. I spent a good many hours reading, listening to music, making tapes, riding my bike to the library, drawing, bossing people around...I don't know how many people actually know this about me but I am actually very shy. I have a terrible time initiating contact with people, I am horrible on the telephone and unless I feel like I have a considerable advantage in whatever the activity is or have been placed in charge, I am usually extremely quiet. I imagine some of the people that read this laughing because I know that's not how I come off a lot of the time....I am very adept at using humor to deflect people picking up on my shyness but ask me to call you back? Go out with you alone...? It's not that I don't think you're awesome and I would love to talk to you - It's just hard for me to place myself in social situations because I feel so uncomfortable and insecure about so many aspects of myself.

Anyways...the moral of the story is that I require personal time in order to function. Seriously. I begin to go crazy if I don't get it and the reason I know that is because when my husband and I began dating, we spent A LOT of time together....this also happened when we first got married. Both of these times, while lovely because I was with a person that I loved, got very difficult as time went on. I got irritable and angry that I wasn't able to spend some time on my own...doing anything - reading , organizing or cleaning something, watching a show that I wanted to watch for a little bit. This has been a difficult thing for my husband to grasp sometimes because I think that to him, time spent apart means that we are fighting...while to me, it is a necessary detail of my life.

This weekend, my husband is out of town with friends. And while I do miss him very much (but I'm sure not as much as the dog), I am reveling in the time I have to myself. I got up late today ( and I got to sleep across the entire bed!), watched a few things on Netflix, took a shower, took the dog for the walk and then headed out with nothing on my schedule except head north and see a movie at some point in the afternoon. I found a Panera, had a long relaxing lunch, half reading my book and half listening to the conversations around me and then went to see 'The Help', which was AMAZING. Please go see that movie - I can only hope that it will affect you as deeply as it did me.

Then I went to Sweet Frog. That was a religious experience that I cannot even describe....so I won't even try.

It was a wonderful day. I feel empowered knowing that I am still a strong enough person to spend an entire day entertained simply by whatever I choose and on my own. This is am important part of who I am as a person. I moved to Virginia alone to begin teaching 7 years ago and that was a very difficult thing to do - creating a whole new life for myself. I feel like when I got married, I lost some of who I was as an individual...which you do....but this part of my personality is important to the well-being of my mind and therefore, my marriage.

So today's take-away lesson....( got to get back in the swing of things) - don't be afraid to spend some time on your own. You can do something cheap, like disappear into your favorite wifi spot for a few hours, or splurge a little and hit up a movie. If you're really brave, go to a restaurant and order a drink or two for yourself. Just be prepared for people to start talking to you...unless you are on your phone or look crazy by talking to yourself ( I have found that both work equally well).

PS: Have you seen 'The Help' yet? Seriously, why are you still here....?

PPS: What do you mean you haven't heard of Sweet Frog. Okay, now this is just sad....

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Being a teacher is like buying a CD at a bank.....

First of all, let me just start this entry with the FACT that the toothpaste/toothbrush 'WISP' things are quite possibly the most awesome invention this century. Besides the fact that it is totally affordable (unlike the many other totally awesome inventions this century), it works! I used one when I was in NYC and took the overnight Chinabus to get there ( that's another story for another entry) and couldn't get the courage to brush my teeth in a public restroom....and I used another one tonight on my way to volleyball and I just felt gross mouth-wise (might of had something to do with that onion-laden meatloaf I had tonight....)

Anyways, the title of tonight's entry is perfect for the last Thursday before heading back to school next week. After 7 years in the same district, I will be switching to a new school system and begin new teacher training next week. It is a very big change for me....I started as a teacher in this first district and while it was extremely difficult a lot of the time to find reasons to stay, they did help me develop into the teacher I am now.

I went into teaching because I wanted to make a difference.

Duh

That's what we all say isn't it? No one tells people they wanted to go into teaching because they just didn't feel like wearing a uniform but do the same work as a prison guard....or that they loved being told on a week to week basis by numerous people (administration, parents, students, LAWMAKERS) that they just weren't that important and had no idea what they were doing.

No - we are called to this profession because we want to make a difference. In the lives of children. One of the biggest lessons I have learned in the last few years of teaching is that when you 'make a difference' in the life of a child, you are making an investment....sometimes one that you will never see again....and sometimes one that will eventually cash out and pay off....usually in a time that you really need it.

Where am I going with this?

Okay, so I was in Walgreen's tonight picking up pictures from some disposable cameras that I found in a drawer ( kind of scared to look at them). This Walgreen's happens to be the one closest to me and also is located in the same community that I taught in for 7 years. I started teaching 7th graders in middle school and stayed there for 5 years. The past 2 years I was moved up to the high school and had the opportunity to teach ( and teach and teach) some of the same students. I also got the chance to see the first two classes of 7th graders that I taught graduate (I won't go into the number of them that actually made it...our high school had a 56% graduation rate).

In my last year at the high school, my 7th year of teaching, one of my kids from my first year teaching saw me at Walgreen's. He got excited and came up to me and asked if I remembered him. I told him of course and to prove it, I said his full name. He grinned - I asked what he was up to. He said that he was graduating this year and that he was working for a year and then would be going to community college. I said that I was so proud of him and seeing that he had a uniform on, I asked him if he was working at Walgreen's. He said that he was doing stocking but was hoping to get a better position permanently in the store. He looked around and said that he needed to get back to work and I told him good luck and went on my way.

Did I remember this kid? Oh yes.

It was my first year teaching...and it was HORRIBLE. I had no idea what I had gotten myself into. This school system is ROUGH. Low income kids, kids with no parents, parents in jail, just everything....and I had NO idea how to connect with them.

It was my second day at school. SECOND DAY and I was attempting to walk my class back from lunch. This particular class had a lot of students that did not make it to graduation....and they showed it. They were all over the hall, shouting, punching each other....and here are other teachers, not looking at them in disgust but at ME in disgust because I obviously had no idea what I was doing. I was assigned to take them to the bathroom after lunch in the 7th grade hall but I just wanted them back in the classroom where the evidence of my incompetence could be well hidden. I ended up letting them go in groups (first mistake) to the bathroom while I worked with the rest of those idiots in the classroom. One particular group of boys somehow made it past me into the restroom without me being able to pick out the ones that I should have known couldn't handle being a small space on their own (second mistake).

The next thing I know, I'm in the hallway, watching for them to come back and this particular boy, who had been a new student (poor soul) to the system, walked around the corner, his shirt covered in blood and continuing to stream out his nose. I have never been so scared in my life - he walked down the hall, trying to hold his nose shut and I panicked! I asked him what happened and he said that he had been jumped in the bathroom by a few of the other boys. I was in disbelief! This actually happened to kids? Are you kidding me?

The worst part was that I had NO IDEA what to do. My 7th grade classroom was the furthest in the school away from the office (not kidding). I didn't know the number to the office and I couldn't leave my students unattended ( I probably wouldn't have had a classroom to come back to). So I continued to panic....I kept the boy outside my room with some paper towels and ran down to the next science teacher's room who was my friend and was almost crying by the time she answered the door. All I did was point to the poor boy in the hall, bleeding into this paper towels. She looked at me and asked "Did you press the button?"

Button?

"Button?" I asked in puzzlement. "What button?"

"The panic button to contact the office" she replied calmly and walked down to my room to show me a small back button in the top corner of my room.

Are you freaking kidding me? A PANIC BUTTON? Where the hell was I teaching????

Anyways, the situation was eventually handled. I made it through the year ( and pressed that button so many times it was embarrassing) and eventually got to a point in my teaching that I would make it almost the entire year without pressing it for emergencies.

So I remembered this kid.

Back to my trip to Walgreen's tonight. I am picking up my pictures and I look up to the wall and see his picture - grinning at me like always - as a member of the photo staff. It was a wonderful feeling.

I may not have 'saved that kid's life' or made a huge difference but he made a big one in mine. And here he was, graduated and ready to start making his own difference in life.

I say that was a payoff :-)

Thinking 'bout the house....

First of all, before anything else, if you are looking for a laugh...check out this link.... it will make you at least smile!

http://www.happyplace.com/4286/brilliantly-sarcastic-responses-to-completely-well-meaning-signs


It's Thursday and there was a small incident that has made me look at our house in a different light than before.

We have a dog - a wire-fox terrier who answers to the name of Bo. Now, Bo is a bit spastic sometimes and so we try to take him for a walk every night. We live in a neighborhood that has a park down the street so we usually take him there where he can run his happy little heart out until we're ready to go back home. My husband and I both walked down the street and upon entering the park, noticed an alarming amount of cars there. Next to the shelter were several kids, over 10, crowded around two boys that were rolling around on the ground, beating the living crap out of each other. Adding to the chaos were 2 more boys with their cell phones out, filming the entire thing. We immediately turned around (against our natural reactions, which as teachers, is to go over and break up whatever is happening) and began to return home. I guess some of the kids were freaked out that they had been caught because a few minutes later, two of the cars that were parked there flew down the street, over 40 mph. We managed to get both the plates and when we got back home, my husband called the police to let them know what was going on. We sat on the steps of our house, sipping a glass of wine and watched as 3 police cruisers came down the street about 5 minutes later and proceeded to clear out the park....which we knew, because all the cars left the subdivision and groups of kids walked back down the street, scattered from their hangout place.

This entire incident left me with the distinct feeling that we need to move out of here as soon as possible....which will be awhile, since we bought the house only 2 years ago and need to stay at least another year to fulfill our agreement to the government (that $8000 incentive program). This is not the first time we have called the police for things happening in our neighborhood....and we are tired of the constant drama of crap that seems to surround our address. I fear the day that someone gets up the gumption to let us know how they feel about us meddling in their questionable business....and have a feeling it will involve new front windows.

There is a lot of work that needs to be done before we can even think of someone purchasing this house. The carpets needs to be replaced, the woodwork needs to be painted with the doors as well, windows should probably be replaced and we have no grass....seriously. No grass.

Please don't ask me why we bought this house in the first place!

We do love it - it has a beautiful great room in the middle of the floor plan, a large kitchen, a great deck and screened-in porch and a pool which has just been replaced as well (long story). Our two cats and Bo love lounging around, and we really do enjoy calling this home. But it is still difficult to walk outside and feel trapped within the subdivision...and by the crappy crap that happens constantly. I grew up in a neighborhood where you could ride your bike to the library, the store or school if you wanted to. The busy road outside of our entrance stops all hopes of that being a reality here. But it is a good home....and it is temporary for the time being. It is truly a "fixer-upper" and has been a good provider of practicing home repair. We have learned a lot about houses while we have lived here and now know what to look for in our next house.

Lesson to learn: Do a lot of research before buying a house and know the neighborhood. Especially if you hate fights in the local park.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Introduction

Well it's that magical time of the year again....August. Not the most favorite month of teachers....well, I lie a bit. If you are a teacher who has truly been called to this job (and if you are, then you know that you had to be CALLED by a higher power), then you are also getting excited....but just a little bit.

August is bittersweet. It's the beginning of a whole new year - new kids, new lessons, a new outlook on teaching that is untainted by nasty parents, ignorant administrators and kids that get that....well, look on their face that you can just tell you are being compared to a TV show...and losing terribly.

August is also the END of that magical time of year that is summer. The time of the year where you can finally take out that list and see what you need to do because you won't be busy making lessons, grading papers or drinking a (few) glasses of wine to forget what happened between the hours of 8 and 3. The time of year where you can breathe without getting that tight feeling in your chest that is the knowledge that you have ___ number of days before June....

But I digress....

I am again making an attempt at creating a blog that will not only being humorous and useful to my mental health, but will also help others....maybe. In being a teacher, I obviously feel like I have things to say that are important....but that is only my opinion. I really wanted to make a VERY anonymous blog about what it is REALLY like to be a teacher in today's public school systems but after seeing what is happening to people and their jobs when it comes to opinion, I figured I would try this instead. But it's a huge part of my life...trust me, it will come up. No names or details...but it will come up.

I want to write about a lot of different things....how to save money, how to fix stuff, how to take care of yourself and others around you. I feel like these are important things....

My husband and I are both teachers. In case you don't know, we are NOT paid well. Don't get me wrong, some teachers make very good money...in states with a union. We aren't in one of those states. My husband and I both started in a district where the TOP pay...for someone with a bachelor's degree...was $56,550....and that's after 30 years of service. Now is that really fair? So a lot of this blog will involve the things that both he and I do to save money on bills, groceries, cleaning supplies, etc. I also try to be as "green" as possible so I am sure that will show up as well.

It's hard to live in such a materialistic and self-centered world sometimes, especially when you aren't a materialistic person....and you are a teacher....so in the words of my dear mother, that's why.....good taste is such a drag...